Host

So much is lost

What this seems to be, what this seems to be is real
All of my life is changing
You’re the enemy, you’re the enemy I fear
All of my life is changing, always some rearranging

So much is lost, so much disharmony
So much is lost, no voice of sympathy

My identity, my identity is not real
All of my life is changing
All of my lies you’re facing

So much is lost, so much disharmony
So much is lost, no voice of sympathy

What this seems to be, what this seems to be is real
All of my life seems wasted, all of my life seems wasted

So much is lost, so much disharmony
So much is lost, no voice of sympathy

Nothing sacred

My life is not too whole
It’s understanding why
I take when I owe
I can’t explain

But it seems like it’s going wrong again
And it feels like it’s going wrong again

My life is oh so cold
Misunderstanding now
It seems that I’m slow
It seems obscene

But you steal and you’re on the run again
And you steal and you’re on the run again

Without the strength to hold
Onto what’s sinking
I’ll pretend it’s all show
I can reveal

But it seems like it’s going wrong again
And it feels like it’s going wrong again

In all honesty

Sit alone and celebrate good times of change
Sit alone, anticipate great times of change
But they’re all washed away with laughter…

As we wait to perish, turn to ashes
Things we’ve all gone through

Sit alone and celebrate good times of change
Sit alone, annihilate all words of praise
When it all seems to spell disaster…

Words of wisdom have no meaning
In all honesty
It’s just fiction, your religion
No apology

There’s no concealing the things that I do
There’s no concealing the things that I choose

Sit alone and celebrate good times of change
Sit alone, anticipate great times of change
But they’re all washed away with laughter…

Words of wisdom have no meaning
In all honesty
Your religion’s contradiction
But you cannot see

Words of wisdom add frustration
To our agony
Constant knowing, always showing
Endless sympathy

Harbour

The need to know gives a strange reaction
The need to know kills my soul, my passion
When will I know just how far this goes?
I feel the glow of a man who’s tasted woe

Fail each time, strong in mind
Turn each page that you wrote
Now and then, you’ll see me there
Always pale with despair

The safe release bears no threat or danger
The tide is weak but may welcome strangers
This joy it seems maybe just a dream
A soul unclean like a man who’s tasted woe

Fail each time, strong in mind
Turn each page that you wrote
Now and then, you’ll see me there
Always pale with despair

Ordinary days

Breathing life, as true as honest work
Breathing life, a truth for all it’s worth

You want to seem to be as fragile as can be
I want to roll inside that shell you call a mind

Breathing life, as frail as insincere
Breathing life, too cold to shed a tear

You want to seem to be as fragile as can be
I want to see the things that I’m supposed to have seen
I want to know the fear that sets inside of me
I want to breathe the air, like I was meant to on ordinary days

You want to seem to be as fragile as can be
I want to see the things that I’m supposed to have seen
I want to know the fear that sets inside of me
I want to breathe the air, like I was meant to on ordinary days

It’s too late

Feared and loathed besides
It’s such a tragedy
I’ve seen all others try
It ends in misery

Could you stand back and take this all in
Before it’s too late

Fragrant your remarks
You offered sympathy
Read between the lines
The dream is honesty

Could you stand back and take this all in
Before it’s too late, now
Could you stand back and set this soul free
Before it’s too late

Dealt the losing hand
No need for jealousy
As our worlds collapse
Who will the saviours be?

Could you stand back and take this all in
Before it’s too late, now
Could you stand back and set this soul free
Before it’s too late

Permanent solution

For the end, the time I’m feeling host
And I’m turning it around for you
Lord I feel I tried much more than I must
And I’ve done the things I wanted to

It’s that useless contribution that leads to a solution for me
You don’t need to search for answers or hide behind romances again

For that very sign to leave this world
And I’m turning it around for you
On the edge of life, it seems to low
And you’ve done the things you wanted to

It’s that finer concentration of total liberation for me
And the more than I believe in the less that I’m receiving instead

Behind the grey

I can’t see much truth in what’s being spoken
I can’t see much hope in what lays broken

I can’t see much truth in what’s being spoken
I can’t see much hope in what lays broken
I’ve seen it many times

Pray for that day when you’ll leave behind the grey
Pray for that day when your feet could walk on different soil

You’ve felt an omen, oh another
I’ve heard this many times when I speak silence
So assured that you could find
I seek it more

Pray for that day when you’ll leave behind the grey
Pray for that day when your feet could walk on different soil

I can’t see much truth in what’s being spoken
I can’t see much hope in what lays broken

Pray for that day when you’ll leave behind the grey
Pray for that day when your feet could walk on different soil
Pray for that day when you’ll leave behind the grey
Pray for that day, and that night you came
You came and saw the earth…

Wreck

See the hands that wave their last goodbye
Talk with friends of God sometimes

You’ll see it’s not that simple anymore somehow
Don’t say it’s not that simple anymore somehow

Save your weak demands for one who cares
No more can I fake this

You’ll see it’s not that simple anymore somehow
Don’t say it’s not that simple anymore somehow

Fear demands its say, it’s where I’ve failed, it’s sad to say
Faith will find a way, accept the shames, a losing game

See the hands that wave their last goodbye
Talk with friends of God sometimes

You’ll see it’s not that simple anymore somehow
Don’t say it’s not that simple anymore somehow

Fear demands its say, it’s where I’ve failed, it’s sad to say
Faith will find a way, accept the shames, a losing game

Made the same

You might need some honest words to heal
You might need some honest words so I’ll say them
Oh Lord knows why

‘Cause I’m made of the same as you’re made
If I struggle with ill fortune that’s my way

You may have fortune enough to breathe
You may feel that that’s enough so lets pray then
Oh Lord knows why

‘Cause I’m made of the same as you’re made
If I choose to fear rejection that’s my way

Do you think you’ll live forever, a goal at any cost
You control your prize endeavour, a game in which you’re lost
Live to breathe new life forever, blinded by the cause
If you think you’ll live forever, the game’s already lost

It’s so cold, many years to go
It’s so cold, many years to go

‘Cause I’m made of the same as you’re made
If I struggle with ill fortune that’s my way
‘Cause I’m made of the same as you’re made
If I choose to fear rejection that’s my way

‘Cause I’m made of the same as you’re made

Deep

Living life today
When tomorrow brings this trail of desperate thoughts
Living so afraid
When tomorrow brings this trail of simple thoughts
Give in for one day
Face the absolute that things won’t go your way

I cannot overstate the problems you have caused
When they all seem to be much deeper than before

Living for today
When tomorrow brings this trail of damaged thoughts
Living for today
Until the afternoon reactions take their course

I cannot overstate the problems you have caused
When they all seem to be much deeper than before

Anger so deep, and anger so alive
Anger so deep, and anger so alive

Year of Summer

There’s two arms you could break
How low can you descend?
Approach the subject kindly
You’ve chosen to defend

Those tears are not for real
They’re falling on command
A harsh decision maybe
You’re living on remand

Your mind is thinking madness
Much more you could not take
Before you fall on bad days
And lower your defence as always

Suddenly demanding, choosing not to feed on all this sadness

My stomach tends to fold
When I speak of your name
Accept that you’re regretful
Accept that you’re not safe

Your life is contradiction
A life that’s bruised and torn
I’ve chosen toleration
You’ve chosen to dismiss as always

Suddenly demanding, the truth is always worse when you are sober

Suddenly demanding, choosing not to feed on all this sadness
Suddenly demanding, choosing not to feed on all this sadness
This sadness is my own

Host

Hear your soothing comfort loud
One knows it’s not too quiet
All consuming circumstance
Can lead to our dysfunction

I see no life behind your weary eyes
I see the looks you struggle to disguise
I’ve seen all vital signs begin to slip
Oh it’s much too late for you to aim you only miss

Say you’ll pay the consequence
And though we all can see it
Time will challenge your defence
Alive but you can’t feel it

I see no life behind your weary eyes
I see the looks you struggle to disguise
I’ve seen all vital signs begin to slip
Oh it’s much too late for you to aim you only miss

Languish

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