Believe in Nothing

I am nothing

Aware of some, aware of nothing more
I have no faith, I cannot settle scores
You hope some day, I’ll move out of the dark
Your wishes fail, ’cause I am nothing

Slave to it all once again I fear
Slave to it all are the ones most dear
Thrilling you all with my tales not real
You believe in them time after time

On hopeless days I sit and justify
A wholesome life of which I’m so deprived
I hope and pray that I won’t stay around
Too long to stain, ’cause I am nothing

Slave to it all once again I fear
Slave to it all are the ones most dear
Thrilling you all with my tales not real
You believe in them time after time

Hope someday?
I could be wrong…

Mouth

Feel so low some days
And only I can taste
Resent security
Obscuring all I see

In my mind
In my mouth
In my soul
Only you provide these symptoms that I show

I could go out in style
Go back from where I came
But luck sees to us all
And rarely plays the game

In my mind
In my mouth
In my soul
Only you provide these symptoms that I show

We’ve seen it all through many years of lonesome hell
Back to a place where we all terminate, we terminate

Fader

It’s in my heart, it’s in your soul
You choose to judge, is that your role?
Don’t analyse or complicate
You’ll criticise, you can’t relate

And now you want some understanding
What’s my point of view?

Then I’ll just fade away
When I hear all your lies I choke
Then I’ll just fade away
Suffering from the times you spoke I fade

Regarding more, just seems much less
So cynical, you must confess
I’m dying here, completely blind
Your will to live just dampens mine

And now you want some understanding
What’s my point of view?

Then I’ll just fade away
When I hear all your lies I choke
Then I’ll just fade away
Suffering from the times you spoke I fade

Look at me now

I need it the most, most subtle
Unnecessary trouble

Abusing too much, regardless
The smallest taste is harmless

So look at me now
So look at me now

So eager to say, it’s nothing
The lifestyle that you’re offering

A promise of hope, has shattered
But does it really matter?

So look at me now
So look at me now

With alluring honesty
It seems my only crutch
My acquired profanity
It seems to be, it seems to be too much

So look at me now
So look at me now
Just look at me…

Illumination

Always, sometimes, always seems to be
Chaos, crisis, always feeds off me
Then you’ll get carried away
The trauma is all too real

And oh too much, it’s in my soul don’t let it show
And oh too much, it’s in my head don’t let it grow again

As I’m walking I’m breathless, I’d welcome clarity
My final excitement was failing to agree
Then you’ll get carried away
The drama is all too near

And oh too much, it’s in my soul don’t let it show
And oh too much, it’s in my head don’t let it grow again

Something real

Array of fortunate life
But could you live through the fight?
No you couldn’t…
All these years of sheltered emotion
In all these years I’ve seen no devotion from you

I could offer honesty
If every day offered something real

Decay of fortune and might
But would you stand up and fight?
No you wouldn’t…
All these years without any notion
In all these years I’ve seen no devotion from you

I could offer honesty
If every day offered something real

Divided

This your only grace
The art of conversation
Regarding common sense
As merely an infliction

Divided we stand
Divided we stand

Maybe you’re content
Relying on religion
You steal without consent
Just consummates my theory

Divided we stand
Divided we stand

Divided we’ll stand
Regardless we’ll fall
How subtle the words we’ve come to know
Divided we stand
Determined to fall
Just like this hollow woe that sleeps inside of me

Sell it to the world

It’s not without its consequence
It’s not without its joy

Sell it to myself
Sell it to myself
Then sell it to the world

It’s not without belligerence
It’s not without a ploy

Sell it to myself
Sell it to myself
Then sell it to the world

It thrives in one fraternity
And slowly will destroy
Sell it to myself
Sell it to myself
Then sell it to the world

Never again

Murder more or less
The anger rages
Blame your loneliness
Blame your situation

The essence is how
Much pleasure allowed
Solution is stealing
The times that you try
So many must die
Their loss so appealing

Murder more or less
The sense engages
Blame unwillingness
Blame your complications

The essence is how
Much pleasure allowed
Solution is stealing
The times that you try
So many must die
Their loss so appealing

Is it too much to say
Never again, never again
Is it too much to say
Never again, never again

Control

Set your heart at a pace no one could follow
Until it’s right in the face no one would swallow

We the subtle damned, refuse to follow
And we are determined to control

So many hours in the day in which you’ll suffer
The saviour you delegate just basks in power

We the subtle damned refuse to follow
And we are determined to control

We’ve lost it all
We breed contempt
With years to go a wealth of debt
A simple retreat

No reason

But you say it’s all over, you’re down by the water
There’s some things you can’t conceal
It’s the same old show
Maybe you don’t know
Go and find some reasons to live

Always a mistake I’m selfless
Always a mistake I feel
But there’s many times when you seem so shallow
There’s many times when you’re without worth

But you say it’s all over, you’re down by the water
There’s some things you can’t conceal
It’s the same old show
Maybe you don’t know
Go and find some reasons to live

There are different ways to hear this
There are different ways to learn
And there may be years when you’re lost in darkness
There may be years when you’re incomplete

But you say it’s all over, you’re down by the water
There’s some things you can’t conceal
It’s the same old show
Maybe you don’t know
Go and find some reasons to live

World pretending

Washed out your simple world
But seems to reappear
Without your simple words
You cannot interfere

And now it’s so absurd what you’re saying to me now
Your world’s pretending
You’re saying to me now
Your world’s pretending
You’re saying to me now
Your world’s pretending
You’re saying to me now
Your world’s pretending

And for your so called friends
They always seemed so dear
But when it all got worse
They seemed to disappear

And now it’s so absurd what you’re saying to me now
Your world’s pretending
You’re saying to me now
Your world’s pretending
You’re saying to me now
Your world’s pretending
You’re saying to me now
Your world’s pretending

Sway

Expel at cost
I’ve looked for valuation
Return what’s lost
I’ve thrived on agitation
I live in fear
Fear of my contradiction

Free my eyes of fire
Greed, my hearts desire

I’m free this way

No love is lost
No love of condescending
Whom do I trust?
Trusting or just pretending?
Maybe it’s wrong
Maybe I’m speculating

Free my eyes of fire
Greed, my hearts desire

I’m free this way

The path I cross
Is strewn with alteration
All at a loss
Morbid infatuation
Why do I try
When it’s so complicated

Free my eyes of fire
Greed, my hearts desire

I’m free this way

Gone

Accept this bitter pain
Accept this bitter pain
There’s too many seasons have changed
There’s too many reasons to change

And when did you decide
When I’d gone?
And when did you decide to break down
When I’d gone?

Your wrath has been unchained
Your wrath has been unchained
There’s too many feeling estranged
There’s too many leaving the stage

And when did you decide
When I’d gone?
And when did you decide to break down
When I’d gone?

Leave this alone

Wish it all away, it’s all the same to you
Living eternally is all you wish to do

And if I said that you’ll come down
You remain
And if I said you must come down
You remain

Villain or a saint, it’s all a game to me
Laughing in the face of it all
I swear you’ve always been

And if I said that you’ll come down
You remain
And if I said you must come down
You remain

And if I said that you seem lonely again
‘Cause you’re speaking too much
But your effort’s in vain
And I think that you’ll lose your mind someday
Why don’t you leave this alone?
Why don’t you leave this alone?

Wish it all away, it’s all the same to you
Laughing eternally is all you seem to do

And if I said that you’ll come down
You remain
And if I said you must come down
You remain

Waiting for God

I bide my time on these lonely nights
But it’s always on my mind
Seems a shame ’cause it’s so inane
But it’s something I can’t find

The lessons that we’ve learned
The lessons that are waiting
All the sins I’ve done
All the lives we’re taking

All the time that I’ve set aside
But it’s always on my mind
I awake, I acquire, I take
But it’s something I can’t find

The years that I’ve spent cold
Are years that I’ve been wasting
All the sins I’ve done
All the time I’m taking